Today was a hard one. Lack of focus, energy and basic enthusiam to do anything :-(. By now I should be able to see the monthly clues to an upcoming "fall off the roof". But, gosh, it gets me everytime. My poor hubby doesn't know how to deal with me, I don't know how to deal with me....except to talk to HIM. There is a bit of comfort in "crying out".
As the day went on the spirit was lifted and by the time I picked R up...I was able to "cope". But the evil one just couldn't let me go....and a beautiful day on the playground quickly gave way to the sins of disobedience (R) and anger (me). It didn't end pretty and privileges were revoked. But once again our God is faithful....as we were settling in for bedtime stories and prayers, I opened up the Bible for a nightly devotions. Here is how God spoke:
Psalm 119: 1-8
Blessed are the undefiled in the way who walk in the law of the Lord. Blessed are they that keep his testimonies, and that seek him with their whole heart. They also do no iniquity, but walk in His ways. Thou has commanded us to keep thy precepts diligently. O that my ways were directed to keep thy statutes. THEN shall I not be ashamed , when I have respect unto all thy commandments. I will praise thee with uprightness of heart, when I shall have learned thy righteous judgements. I will keep thy statutes: O forsake me not utterly.
HE always knows what we need to "hear" at just the right time. What a great lesson for both R and me! Praise God for his wonderful mercies that are new every morning. I love being able to say tomorrow is a new day and a new opportunity to have a clean slate. I love that I can teach my daughter these truths and help her to understand what it means to walk in the ways of the Lord. I LOVE that although I fail daily, those failures lead to opportunities to share struggles and teach life lessons that she will one day pass on to her family. Although the day started off in a "funk" it is ending in blessing. Thank you Lord Jesus!!!